Saturday, October 30, 2010

Pirate Princess

I have only dressed up once for Halloween when I was in high school and a few times as a kid... Well this year I did the unimaginable... I dressed up. Last week I went to the Halloween store with my good friend Sarah also a bander (by the way she is soo close to her 100 down) we tried on costumes. It was soooo much fun. So I decided to play along. We went to a party called the Gravediggers ball. It was fun he see everyone dressed up. I had a wonderful time, so glad I did it. The confidence that I have gained over the last year is amazing. I still can't believe that I wore what I did.. Boots to my knees you hear me hahaha!!!! The best part of my outfit was that it came with pirate panties :) 

Monday, October 25, 2010

Lunch with Jacquie

I know all of you are jealous that I had lunch with Jacquie again today. I just love her soooo much. It was a much needed!!!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Making Strides for Breast Cancer 5K

Kathy and I did our 3rd 5k of the year last Saturday. Making Strides for Breast Cancer. We beat our time and had a lot of fun all for a great cause in honor of my Aunt Joyce and in support of my Aunt Nita and all the other survivors. My friend Jason came out and joined us to. Super awesome day! 

Friday, October 22, 2010

Welcome to my rut

I am very involved in my doctors office it is a huge place and I constantly have people asking me questions... How did you do so well? Why can't I succeed like you did? What do you eat? How much physical activity do you do? Yesterday I hit rock bottom. I felt overwhelmed and just totally helpless. I feel like I am not helping people the way I should. I feel at a loss of words these days. Yes I did very well in the beginning and lost 100 pounds quick, but the last 5 months I have only lost about 30 pounds. I know some of you are like 130 and you are complaining. Let me tell you I am not complaining at all. I am so happy with myself. I feel like I have finally accomplished something on my own.  I am steadily losing never gaining, but still not double digits every month anymore. I know it gets harder, but some people think I am perfect, and a pro at this banding thing. I am gonna put it out there to the whole world that I am not a pro. It is a life long struggle that I have to deal with every single day of my life. Just like everyone else that is going through this same process. I signed up knowing that I have to change my life forever. Its all about the choices we make 24 hours a day. When I cheat I admit it. and I do cheat. ha.. I have always been a people pleaser, but the past year I have worked so hard at improving myself that I have tried to constantly do what Gail wants to do, but deep down I still have the need to want to fix everyone. I get emails, texts, and phone calls from people and I want to fix them. I know I can't do it, but I get depressed that I lost so much weight, and I feel helpless when I dont have the right words to say. I had dinner with a good friend last night, and she said "Gail you can't fix no one but yourself." I know this, but I can't seem to get out of this rut. I have never really been the one to ask for help. I always listen to everyone and try to help them. So again this is huge for me. Angie the lady I went to dinner with last night used to be in a small group I used to have on Monday night months ago she even brought up the fact that at the beginning of those groups I would never talk about my self, but the leader Kristie did so well for me pushing me to open up. That was the creation of this new change in myself. I miss her and that group time so much. So now I am reaching out to you guys.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Roller Coaster Madness

For the first time in almost 9 years I finally got to ride a roller coaster. Before I could not even use the modified seating. On Monday I rode the Hulk at Universal in the front row!! Then did round two in the back row. I love roller coasters!! I see myself spending a lot of time there using my annual pass this year!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Donate to Me

Hey! Next Saturday I am walking a 5K for Breast Cancer. Click the link and donate to this great cause. I am walking in honor of my Aunt Joyce that I lost to breast cancer and for my Aunt Nita who is a survivor.

Thanks you guys!!!

Making Strides Against Breast Cancer. Donate to Me!!

Monday, October 4, 2010

So as much of you know my Dr. put me on 3 weeks restriction because I had my all time low of a month weigh in only losing 2 problem was Starbucks and Peanut M&M's waaayy to many carbs when my office only wants you to have 30 in a day. I spent the day shopping with my really good friend Jon. Our last stop was Target for some house stuff. We did the usual filled the buggy up. Checkout came I put my stuff up and paid. We got to the car he sat down and opened a bag of peanut m&m's are u kidding me???? My appointment is in the morning at 730 to end my 3 weeks. How ironic was that. He's funny.. I said to him you have got to be kidding me, his response was none for you missy haha!!! Not only was it hard in Chicago with a Starbuck on every corner. But I've got this... This girl has will power like crazy!!!  Hope everyone had a good day!